Failing at it

It's time I stopped making you strain your eyeballs and you could just listen to what's up. This one is a soppy one, nothing, and I mean nothing, has been getting me places. Ughh

That said (cried?), after my MC Ty post, I received a sweet, complimentary message from James Vice from The Delegates Of Rhyme (Bristol) asking if I minded posting their music on here. Why would I mind? It's a pleasure. https://soundcloud.com/delegatesofrhyme

Rap-Art - night

Let me just say, 14 July 2014 – the Rap-Art night – was AMAZING! I am most definitely being biased, since this was my own event, my project, my baby and of course I would have loved it more than anyone else BUT… that said, people. had. fun. Which is all I cared about.

The gallery’s manager Catherine, herself a hip-hop fan, admitted at the end of the night that she knew it was either going to be a sh-t turnout or a great one. Well duh. Once all this was finally taken care of, turnout was ALL I had on my mind. Also, the turnout was largely out of my control (60 followers on twitter, no contacts in the industry and no friends who are into hip-hop). Beautifully enter Xavier and the musicians. They promoted and I watched in nail-biting state and pretty much prayed, or was close to it. You probably see by now how I am NEVER satisfied with the process. There’s always more sh-t that I feel must be done (there is!!!). But here, I had to let go. Which was prettttty painful.

Guess what though… People came!  They came and they talked and they drank and they danced. And they totally filled up the venue. It’s been months now and I still see myself watching these people come and hang out, and not actually realising that the venue was full (I hung outside, it was too nerve-wrecking to wait for people inside the actual space) until Xavier told me to come in. Well f-ck, turns out people really love a party with music and free booze. Tip of the day, fellow entrepreneurs.

Can I please take the time now this second to thank again ALL of the boys who came and performed – I appreciate how I actually saw that they loved being there, doing what they did. I thanked and hugged each one of them at the end of their set but really, I can’t thank them enough. They. Threw. It. Down.
General Havok
Creative Elevation
Shane Chubbz
BEV LDN

During the night, my name was called a few times haha well this is a situation I never thought I’d hear the sound of my own name in! Two years ago I’ve no idea who Drake is and now I am organising an ‘underground’ rap event. Weird. It feels wrong though – I just want to work and hide.

Oh and all of the Asylum33 boys came and that was super lovely – I don’t see them often and I miss them. I think my sister kinda sorta fancied one hehe cute! Obviously can’t say which one.

Fast-forward to the end of the night, I am drunk (yes, ok, this is terrible and never again, seeing as how I don’t actually drink, and even if I did this was NOT the time) and Xavier is telling me people are asking when the next event is. He is thinking of making it regular. Me, I’m always in doubt, especially when drinking, but I LOVED the sound of it, no lie.

Now to the ‘problems’, or rather what ~I~ saw as problems (seriously, why am I so uptight? Therapy when I can afford it). Looking back, the whole thing actually went pretty smoothly. We hadn’t decided on the order of performances and had to do it right there. We ran out of wine – which, there never IS enough wine. Brothers were smoking weed outside – this one, actually, I had been warned about, by someone with tens of years of experience, and at the time I brushed it off (What matters is that ~I~ don’t smoke or drink, I said) but f-ck when you don’t know the people who are doing it you kind of don’t know what to eventually expect. Luckily, they all happened to be the peace-and-love type. And really, I think that’s all that ‘seemed’ to be going wrong on the night. Not bad, huh?

Not bad.

Next morning, 8.30 I was tweeting the sh-t out of the night’s events whilst waiting for boarding to fly to Cyprus and be with my family. Hungover, but SO happy.

Update: Xavier and I have ‘uncoupled’. He’d been acting distant for some time and I think he’s got quite a bit of sh-t to deal with and I might have acted impatient about that. But I won’t front, I miss him and I am super upset. As well as losing someone I liked it’s also a professional blow: good-bye Rap-Art, you were bloody great, and you could definitely have become even greater. I will cherish the memories forever.